Anti Valentine

I really despise Valentines Day but my husband insists on getting me somehing which in turn puts me under pressure to get him a card.


This year he suppased himself though, I got a lovely bunch of flowers, a chocolate rose (which Amelia ate) and a .... DustBuster!! Which made me laugh lots


So Happy Valentines Day to all you ole romantics

Stopping at Two

I went to visit my new little nephew on Friday and if I'm honest I was a little worried about this strange phenomenon called broodiness. Broodiness got me later in life up until I was 32/33 I never wanted children at all and then suddenly it poll axed me and I had two in 18 months, I definitely don't want any more but I was feeling cautious as I am now a little bit more prepared for the unexpected. Thankfully it just re affirmed that I have enough, he was lovely and delicious but when he cried.... the thought of going through that again... Oh NO! so no more for me... phew!  

Awww my little Millies feet.... One more?? ha ha no way!

Maybe controversial...

I don't get the whole "what a tragedy that Whitney Houston has died". Yes undoubtedly she had a great voice but whenever I heard her speak or read interviews she never came across as a particularly nice person. Yes I feel sorry for her family but I just don't get it....

Getting the hang of this...

Ohhhh finally getting the hang of blogger, its taken me a while but bear with me whilst I tweak and change things.. I'm getting there.


Busy weekend (and I still have toothache which is making me a right grump) we are in the process of sorting our front room into a playroom as we have more toys than Hamleys.


So the fireplace has been blocked up, furniture has been decided, I just need to paint some time this week, next weekend we will get the storage and hopefully turn it into a great playroom. Even though the girls at the moment think the whole house is a play room, toys everywhere!


Swimming yesterday with Amelia but the water was freezing so I am expecting a return of the cough/cold again, poor little mite is never well at the moment and Isobel has terrible conjunctivitis, come on summer hurry up we need to get well.


We also had a poo disaster... Isobel all naked for her bath decided to poo all over her bedroom and then tried to eat some!!!! dirty little toerag! I don't know who looked sicker her or me.... disgusting little bugger

*** Looking like butter wouldn't melt!

Bad parenting?

I'm considering buying an iPad for my eldest for her 3rd birthday, she loves the educational apps on my phone but I can't help but feel its wrong... Discuss

Welcome to the world..

Welcome to the world Harry Jack Jenkins, Amelia can't wait to meet you little baby Harry xxx

Kennels for Kids

A new business venture.... Kennels for Kids!


I will book mine in whilst I go and lie on a sun lounger for a week.


Well I can dream can't I...

:-(

I'm not in the best of moods to be honest, I feel old and knackered! I have tooth ache in two places even though I went to the dentist yesterday, one side of my face has swelled up so I look fab. I have back ache, hip ache, knee ache... I just want to sleep, preferably in a lovely 5* hotel, clean crisp white sheets, room service and complete silence. Not for ever just a weekend to recharge my batteries , this was my dream whilst I was pregnant with baba. Never mind, pull yourself together it will be all fine... sob sob!


And my little nephew still hasn't made an appearance, after two inductions and waters breaking over 14 hours ago, still nothing... come on baby Harry we are waiting for you. 

This made me laugh.. a lot

Forgot to add..

I should also have a scrummy new nephew being born today, eek so excited. Amelia says that Mickey (Becky) has a baby in her tummy and she is fascinated by it, so cute.

On a nicer note..

On a nicer note, both babies slept through (ish) baba did a bit of moaning but not enough that I had to get up to her. Took baba to the doctors and we have some new cream to try and get rid of this bloody persistent nappy rash, fingers crossed it works and we get her sorted and finally I have a new phone on the way, woo hoo! Its funny as I used to love my Blackberry and it took my husband ages to convince me to get an iPhone and now I  wouldn't have any other phone, I can't wait for it to arrive.


Today is gymnastics day, which Amelia loves, lots of running, jumping, roly-polys great fun.

** Warning bad language*** Argh!! Irresponsible dog owners please read....

PICK YOUR DOG SHIT UP..... THANK YOU, YOU DIRTY IRRESPONSIBLE BASTARDS!!


I don't think I need to explain that I stepped in dog shit today and it makes me furious, until recently I was the owner of two dogs or the shit machines as I affectionately called them and I picked up their shit! I recently looked after a neighbours dog and I picked up his shit! 


Luckily it was me and not my two year old the stepped in it but it is disgusting!


I will leave the subject there BUT be warned if I see anyone who is not picking up their dogs doings, I will be having a word...

Monday, Monday...

We've had temperatures, coughs, colds, teething, snot, crying (me and the girls) and its only 2pm! Welcome to Monday, even though the majority was Sunday night but lets not get pedantic shall we.


I am on the ball today though ladies and gentleman, my house is shining, the washing is done, babies are fed and asleep (Babies I mean my 2 year old and 1 year old) I have eaten (woo hoo) and now I am having a cup of tea. I will soon have to go and sort myself out to go out in public. We are going to my favourite place in the world Jellybeans!! Oh sorry what I meant to say was we are going to hell on earth! I cannot tell you how much I hate the place, full of rude, germ bag kids whose parents think it is ok to let their 7,8,9 year old boys throw themselves in the baby play area and jump, tread, fall on my little one. I am forever rollicking some little shit, I am just waiting for the day where I will end up fighting with some kids mum or dad. Oi bring it on! I will embrace my inner Stokie and have a good scrap ha ha, today may be the day ;-)


I am also going to set up my Twitter & Facebook accounts today, under the blogs name info to follow.


I love Twitter & Facebook, I think because I have no life I love to live precariously through others, certain people more than others I get a bit of an obsession with. Not that I would want their lives, maybe one of their wardrobes but not their life's but I love love love all their drama. 


Jellybeans was actually quite good today, probably because it was quiet, I didn't have to shout at anyone and the girls had a great time running around. I caught up with my best friend inbetween chasing after baba who was determined to explore every bit of Jellybeans.

End of another weekend

Don't weekends come and go so fast. This has been a pretty non de script weekend, I think we are all tired and a bit grumpy. Weather is rubbish, no snow but lots of ice so we can't even go for a walk anyway, both girls are still full of cold, so no swimming and the husband is in a bad mood. Grumps all round!


Definition of the sexes lie in...


Husband lie in on Saturday... I was up at 3am, 4.30am and 7.30am with baba, husband slept undisturbed until 10.00am


My lie in on Sunday... I woke husband up at 5.30am to see to baba, I then woke husband up at 7.30am to get up with baba, I then got up at 8am to take Amelia for a wee... hmmmm something not quite right here!

Mind a-whirling!!!

I'm feeling itchy... life is sort of under control now what do I do next? This is the perfect opportunity to do something new... but what? tough decisions... hmmmmm


Anyway a successful visit to play group and I didn't drop anything down the toilet woo hooo! I do find playgroups fascinating, to see the different dynamics and clicky groups. I am pretty new to this playgroup even though I used to go to a different playgroup organised by the same group so I know all the leaders, helpers etc and before I continue the people who run this playgroup are fantastic and I cannot praise, recommend them highly enough so please do not think I am criticising the group in ANY way because they are fab but.... ha ha I feel a little bitch coming on as a newbie they are a little bit more clicky than the last group with the queen bee sat in the corner and all the new mums surround her and hang on to her every word. I have to say though I am not the most sociable person and I do struggle to make small talk with people I don't know, I have always been this way and I either click with someone or I don't and until recently if I didn't click then I wouldn't bother to try and make conversation but it has dawned on me that I need some new mummy friends so I am trying to put myself out their a bit but its a struggle, a lot of mums tire me a little with the "my childs a genius, better than yours, perfect" etc etc so I am trying to reinvent myself and be more light hearted, care free, funny. I do have that in me I just seem to have misplaced where I left fun me, its been smothered by hassled mum of two babies!


If you do live in Warrington and want to go to a lovely playgroup go to http://www.kingschurchwarrington.co.uk/kings_tots.html
I love them and cannot recommend them highly enough

Today I may lose my temper..

5th night of no sleep, then the only day that Amelia goes to nursery and the car won't start, had to wait 2 hours for breakdown people who sorted the car in 30 seconds but now the car stereo won't turn off, I can't get baba into the doctors until Tuesday and I have PMT!! not a good combination. On a positive note my house is clean (ish) oh my sodding Blackberry is playing up as well, I can feel a tantrum coming on


AND next doors log burner is making my living room stink of smoke... 1,2,3,4,5...


Ok so my day got better thank goodness, lets hope we have a good night

Lack of control..

What I don't understand is how in my previous life I was a hard nosed recruitment consultant, who ran an office, who has shouted at grown men in the street to pick their litter up, who in reality was a little bit scary, very feisty, took no prisoners, had an extremely blunt way of expressing myself


in my current life...


I CANNOT get my two year old to wear a frigging jumper!!!! or anything warm at all for that matter, it is -2 and she is dressed for summer (sigh)


How has this happened? 


I think when I gave birth I had a complete personality transplant, I went from having my hair done twice a week, carry designer handbags, wearing designer clothes to shopping in Primark (if I get around to shopping at all), carrying the biggest bag I can find to carry all my baby stuff and never getting my hair done but I do still wear Chanel No 5 ;-)


Anyway off to bake the cakes we didn't do yesterday, my goal is to be like Bree Van De Camp




Ok cupcakes made successfully (minus small burn to my left wrist ouch), Amelia actually ate one this time = result but she still wouldn't get any mess on her so we need to keep working on that one. 


Background info... I have Amelia the Princess, who hates mess, dirt, anything sticky, yucky and I have baba who loves ALL the above, if she can get covered head to toe in sticky, mucky crap then she is as happy as a pig in muck!


So whilst Amelia is having a nap on the sofa and baba is singing in her cot (please sleep baba, please) I am getting on with my stuff... well I will after I've had a cupcake and a cup of tea.


Also my new Kindle has arrived so I am preparing to sink back into the sadness of reading Madeleine. Not that I need reminding of how much I love my girls but something like this reinforces how fragile life is and that we need to pay extra care, attention and heaped as much love as possible on those dependant on us. I am finding a pattern in things that seem to kick me in the ass occasionally when I need it, a bit more background... 


Whilst I was pregnant with baba I just expected her to be just like her big sister, Amelia was a dream baby I hardly knew I had her and that was one of the main reasons I had them so close together. Motherhood was a breeze so an 18 month gap seemed like the right thing to do. Now in reality when baba came along she was and still is the complete opposite of Amelia, she cried and cried and cried, for the first six months she didn't stop crying and what made it worse was she only wanted me, my husband only had to look at her and she would cry louder which put enormous pressure on me. I struggled, looking back on it now I was also slightly down as well (not depressed, just down) and I do put a lot of pressure on myself to try and be the perfect mummy, wife, daughter, sister, friend etc... My house has to be perfect, I always say you can tell my state of mind by the state of my house - If its all clean, sparkling and tidy then I am on top of my game and everything is rosie. If its a mess then so am I. The house was a mess, I looked a mess, we didn't leave the house, everything was far from rosie. I really thought we had made a huge mistake, don't get me wrong though I loved this new baby with all my heart and she so desperately needed me and only me that I was far too over protected of her and I definitely made her more clingy, vicious circle.  Any way one day I stumbled across a show called Ouch - Sextuplets! and it was about the Masche family how had sextuplets at the time of the show they were 18 months, similar age to my Mil and they were so free and easy with their kids it really was a wake up call to me, I knew I had to lighten up and just take one day at a time and enjoy my girls. If they can do with six then surely I can do it with two?? so life just clicked into place and it took a little while but now I wouldn't change it for the world (well I would like baba to sleep better but hey). Things are great, baba loves her daddy so much it is so funny to see her when she hears him walk through the door, she gets so excited she almost hyperventilates lol. 


Life is good and I am thankful for my girls everyday, for the love, joy and laughter they give me xxx